Turning Things Around For the Good

Over the last few months my depression has grown to an incredibly overwhelming level. Despite my best efforts, new policies at work have caused a severe pay cut for me. These changes are happening on a corporate level, and have reduced my income by over 50%. This change in my finances has sent my anxiety and depression through the roof. The last two days I would say that I have lost it, quite dramatically (pun intended.)

It is often difficult for a man to make less money than his wife under normal circumstances, although the last couple of months I have been struggling with this very concept. Watching my wife leave this morning utterly exhausted while I was indulging in feeling sorry for myself prompted me to brew extra dark coffee and start my day with a “to-do list”.

Today I decided that I was not going to let my insecurities get the better of me and that I would find a way to rise above the challenges, as my wife has over the last few months. My goals were lofty, and I was unable to accomplish all that I had set out to do today, but it was a start in the right direction. All you can do it take it one day at a time.

Here’s the things I accomplished today…

  1. I planted a bare root rose, my absolute favorite: a blue moon rose. I managed to finally find one after searching for 3 years!
  2. Lili’s been learning to ride her bike, and today we made it almost 3/4 of a mile around the park without stopping falling!
  3. I found 2 leaks in the drip system, and repaired them to keep my watering system working properly
  4. I cleaned up the backyard, after our pups got into some mischief late last night.
  5. Finished all the laundry, to Sarina’s delight.
  6. Cooked dinner.

It turned out to be a great day! I kept myself moving and motivated. I focused on all the things I could control, and surrendered the things I couldn’t. I hope that when you’re having a rough day, you can find a way to turn it around, and see all that good that comes out of being positive and focused.





  1. Patricia Sadler

    You found a BLUE MOON rose! They are very rare and beautiful! I call that “favor”..God’s special blessing to a favored son! Those roses are not only beautiful, they are wonderfully fragrant. Such a blessing! And then to see so many purposeful and important accomplishments in one afternoon is so fulfilling. I’m proud of you for sitting down, accurately assessing the situation and becoming proactive in the face of overwhelming difficulty. You have every right to be proud of yourself for a day we’ll lived. Many blessings for many more.

    1. Jon Sadler (Post author)

      Thank you Patricia I am trying and am proud

  2. Jonathan Shannon

    I’m proud of you, Jon. I find that working from a list also helps me to stay focused on the outside world, and not on the madness in my mind. It REALLY does make me feel good, knowing that you are taking strides in a positive direction… I know that having you in my life is an inspiration. And I am better for having you and family in my world. I love you my friend! Congratulations on such a successful day!

    1. Jon Sadler (Post author)

      Thank you Jonathan! I am glad as I could not complete this journey without you

  3. Robin

    My daughter suffers from depression and anxiety also. & I can tell you as a mother it is very very hard to watch! I appreciate your honesty! It gave me hope for my daughter!

    1. Jon Sadler (Post author)

      I’m very humbled and glad. May she find her peace and bliss


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